Its back.....that uneasy....unsettling feeling...anxiety sugar coated with the overwhelming !!! I feel good...and then i feel bad....i feel happy and then....a bit sad...and then shoot off in some other line of thought !! A zillion things on my mind....a zillion things to do..my minds caught up in a game...or a fitting battle...and my heart...bitter and then...dripping with blood...
Its there....in the pit of my stomach...and i can feel it shaking....even as i write...as i do every waking second and perhaps even as i turn in bed for the 5 hours of sleepless nights....! Its great....invigorating....suggesting that the time is ripe....n the time is now...to make a move....to make a life...only...if i had said it then....i would be sound asleep....with the knowledge....and not the unkown.
He'll be back though
but ill be gone
perhaps....later
but ive got to do it now
i cant seem to bear it
not another day
of polite conversations
and unending deliberations
i need to knw
i need to get out
at the end of the tunnel lies
the promise
of a new adventure !!!
Only...
Gosh !!! i sound pathetic... (does it help that i feel so too !#&* )
